*Sigh*

My in-laws called on Sept. 11 and told Josh that a family friend had been killed in Iraq. He was Josh's age, had a wife my age, and they had a baby that was only a few months old. He was due to come home in approximately a week. My heart just aches for them--I cannot imagine the pain they are going through. Is it selfish to think "Thank God it's not us"? Probably, but it so easily could be. I can't wait for Josh to be finished w/ his time. Officially it's Nov 14, but he starts terminal leave Oct 22. I know there are temptations to staying in (30K bonus, get his E7, etc) but he said family is more important, he wants to settle down and not have to move every few years. If it weren't for the fear of deploying again, I wouldn't be so vehement about him getting out. Josh doesn't mind the deployment but I do. As far as I'm concerned, he's done his time overseas. While I am not a fan of the war, I am a fan of our soldiers. I am so proud of my husband and I love seeing him in his uniform. When people (like the bitch at Target) give him nasty looks while he's in uniform I want to rip their heads off. It's people like him that give her the right to say or do whatever the fuck they want w/out consequences of torture or death or whatever. I hate that. Don't act like you're better than someone who fights for your freedom to run your mouth about things you can't even begin to understand.

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Whew. Enough about that. Hannah slept from 2200-0700 last night!! I cannot fricking believe it!!!! She slept in her swing all night. After an hour of screaming she finally settled down and I put her in the swing. Zzzzzzzzz. Thank you thank you thank you. I woke up at 0400 (habit) and she was still snoozing away. Bing slept in the living room by her all night. He's Hannah's new body guard :) And as I've been thinking what I want to write, it all goes out the window when I actually sit down to do it. Little missy is sleeping again and I tried to fall asleep w/ her but I guess my body's accustomed to the sporadic sleep I've been getting.

Hannah has been sleeping w/ us for a few weeks since it was the only way I could get her to stay asleep. Not a habit I really wanted to start, but hey, when it's the only way I can sleep, I'll take it. Anyways, Josh says to me a couple days ago that Hannah needs to either sleep in her bassinet or her crib. I freaked out and said no way was she sleeping across the house in her crib. So bassinet sleeping it is. She was sound asleep and after putting her down, she of course wakes up like always. So I rock her in the bassinet for over an hour to get her to sleep. Wakes up about 2 hours later. Damn. Normally she lasts at least 4 when she sleeps w/ us. I get up, feed her, change her, etc and she's back asleep. Back in the bassinet she goes. Wide awake at once. Another hour is spent trying to get her back asleep with no avail. Finally, finally, finally....she falls asleep w/ her binky and Josh wakes up and is grouchy as hell b/c she was breathing loud. I got pissed, picked her up, and went to sleep in the guest room w/ her. She was out like a rock for hours after that.
Fast forward to later that night>>>>>

Josh: Is Hannah going to sleep in bed w/ us tonight?
Me: Um, you said no.
Josh: Yeah, I was wrong.

Hehehehe. I have never heard sweeter words. She never made it to our bed since she zonked out in the swing. I am hoping tonight will be a repeat. We tried gripe water for the first time last night and while I didn't see a difference right away, she has never slept like that...ever. I hope she makes a habit of it!!