Hannah,
I hope you know, and I mean really, truly know, how much your daddy and I love you. We love everything about you (except for the occasional shrieking-that we can do w/ out). Sometimes when you're sleeping we just stare at you and maybe, just maybe, we'll brush your hair off your forehead. And then we talk in whispers about how blessed we are and how we can't believe we made someone as spectacular as you.
Today your daddy went away for an overnight trip to Ohio to look at a carwash for sale. We really really really hope we get it. I want you to know everything we do, we have you in mind. There is not a single decision we make that doesn't involve you. You are the only single reason your daddy is getting out of the Army. He doesn't want us to have to move around with you and have you move to different schools. He wants you to be close to family and I agree.
We thought we were so complete until you were born. Now we wonder how we managed without you. Even when you decided sleeping in the night is not for you anymore, we love you :) I like getting up with you and having you snuggle into my neck and the way you make little "Eh eh eh eh" noises when you see your bottle. I love how you hold my fingers and put your little hands over mine. I love watching you cuddle snuggle on your daddy--but only on daddy. You won't do it with me. You hold on to his shirt with one hand, as if for reassurance.
I am so very sad that I start back to work on Monday. You will be a week shy of 4 months old and while I realize it a lot more time than most mommies get, it's not enough for me. Your daddy is staying h0me to take care of you. That is the only part that gives me comfort. I cannot imagine leaving you with someone else.
Right now I miss him very much. We pray for you, Hannah, to find a love like we have one day. This will be the longest time we've spent apart since the one day in May for your baby shower. We've never been one of those couples that say "Ugh, I need a break". He is truly my best friend and a wonderful person, little missy. I know you already know that, just from the way you look at him and talk to him...and smile. You have the biggest smiles for your daddy.
Right now you are watching Baby Einstein and letting your milk settle. You've tried rolling over a hundred times today, but basically just roll from side to side. You'll get it, baby girl.
My heart,
Mom
